gothicinferno

... Meh.

Not much to update on. My health is somewhat better. Boredom level has increased tenfold, and thus I've taken up gaming.

Current games include:

Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep
Assassin's Creed
Fallout: New Vegas
Bioshock 2
Call of Duty: Black Ops
Mafia II
Infamous
Chrono Trigger (I DON'T WANNA FIGHT LAVOS ;A

If anyone has any suggestions about games I should play (preferably on the PSP since I only have KHbS) then you should definitely tell me about them.

Cosplay I'm actually working on:

Killjoy (Dragon*Con)

Cosplays I intend to work on at some point:

Ivy from Soul Calibur series
Pyro from TF2
Altair from Assassin's Creed series
... maybe in the distant future, Cole from Infamous (most likely Infamous 2 since I like his little lightening rod thingamajig he uses as a weapon and I already have his backpack <_<)
Kyouya from Ouran, but only if Jesse does Tamaki.
Sebastian from Kuroshitsuji
Denmark from Axis Powers Hetalia
I can't think of any more at the moment :I

Eugh... it's been a while, non?

The long and short of it: I've been extremely (read: life threateningly) ill over the past few months. Went in for surgery, ended up having massive complications that put me back in the hospital for a good 6 weeks. Took me forever to get back to normal from that (various things were wrong with me, and still are. I still have a hole in my organ and my stomach is in a corkscrew shape. And I was diagnosed with pneumonia again yesterday night. But at least my left arm is capable of moving again) and now I'm just trying to get better from the pneumonia. Art has really taken a back seat in my life as of late. I don't rightly remember when the last time I picked up a sketch pad even was.

School's been pushed back, I have no job and no money, my parents are so paranoid about letting me out into the world for fear of me dropping dead that I'm stuck in the house most of the time, except for when I exercise or when I talk them into letting me be social... at least Jesse has been a fairly regular emotional pick-me-up. If there was no her, I probably would have devolved into depression and suicidal acts. But that just means I'd have been sent to a shrink sooner. At least when my mother drags me into one in the near future for suspicion of PTSD I'll be in a good enough mood to fuck with their head.

Oh well. Just thought I'd pop in to give a quick update to anyone wondering if I'm still alive.

And I can say that yes, I am still alive, although it was kinda touch-n-go there for a bit.

I swear I'll upload something sometime soon.

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If you answer, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing the list with 19 other people. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone.

1. Mah cupcake <3 How I do love you >w< You're one of my bestest friends evar.
You make such a good Prussia
And I love your angels
I do believe this is my all time favorite picture of you :3 ... and of course you were being you, the king of thieves.

2. Houston~~ Always so interesting and informative. And I love your inventions.
Yay baton c:
Pokemon and gasmasks CAN NEVER GO WRONG
And naturally I've always been a fan of your doodles :3

3. <3 Dear heart. I love you with all that I am and I simply adore you and am completely devoted to you. I always wondered why poets and artists went to such great lengths for the people they focused their attention on and created great masterpieces and literary wonders, and thanks to you, I now completely understand.
O hai Allen... erm... Six?
This picture always made me want to turn your head and kiss you
That lovely collar of yours... *paws at* ;3
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Well, the end of the semester is at the door knockin'. Got a couple finals next week but otherwise I'm done with school till about July wherein I take calculus and die.

Art wise, I should be coming out with a couple new things on here. I've had somethin' kickin about in my brain for a little while now and I think it'd do well to get out. Also some fanart of Firefly [hnnngg I love that show] and other things as well, dependin'.

This isn't a long update, I just felt the need to write something since my last post was in December and it's now May.

Also: I REACH CRITICAL MASS IN 9 DAYS. WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Beginning of 2009:
Where were you ?
On the computer of course.

Who were you with?:
Mom, dad, nikku and a couple others I believe.

Did you kiss anyone on new years?
Not irl.

Did you make any resolutions?:
No o-O

All About You 2009:
I've had my ups and downs, mainly ups, and altogether I think I've grown a lot in the past year.

Did you dye your hair in 09?
Couple times

Did you get your hair cut?
See above answer

Did you change your style?
Meh, a little bit, in small ways.

Were you in school?
Yes.

Did you get good grades?
Bout average.

Did you have a job?
Yes.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I know of o-O

Did you move at all?
Not yet...

Did you go on any vacations?
Yes.

Did you leave the country at all?
Yes. Ireland.

Your Love Life 2009:

Did you break up with anyone?
Yes

Did you meet anyone special?
Well, I met the catalyst that caused me to find the one I've been searching for ever since I could remember.

Did you fall in love?
Utterly and completely.

Friends and Enemies 2009:
Did you meet any new friends this year?
Uh.. sorta?

Did any of your friendships end?
Meh. Yeah.

Did you dislike anyone?
I gained my first enemy?

Did you make any new enemies?
See above

Did you resolve any fights?
I resolve a lot of fights all the time, and most of the time I can get them to go away, but the enemy previously stated is one fight I'm never going to resolve.

Did you grow apart from anyone?
Somewhat, yes.

Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Indeed.

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In 2009 I..
[x] broke a promise
[x] fallen out of love
[x] lied (Who hasn't?)
[x] went behind your parent's back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] kissed in the rain
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing (mostly due to being sick)
[ ] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[x] almost died
[x] given up something important to you (S'okay, got her back)
[x] lost something expensive (I SWEAR I DON'T KNOW HOW I BROKE THAT CAMERA IN THE PUB IN IRELAND)
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[ ] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] was never home on weekends (On and off)
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had someone close to you die
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[ ] spent most of your money on food
[x] had a fist fight (I get into fist fights with Mandie frequently)
[x] went to the beach (Do the Cliffs of Moher count?)
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[ ] stayed single for the whole year
[x] made out in/on a car
[ ] kissed in the snow
[x] celebrated Halloween
[x] had your heart broken (I did it to myself, but I fixed it)
[ ] had a stalker
[ ] mooned someone
[ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
[x] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[x] came out of the closet
[ ] gotten pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[x] done something you've regretted
[ ] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile
[ ] shopped at Hollister or Bench
[ ] posted a blog on MySpace
[ ] listened to music you couldn't stand (I can tolerate pretty much anything, actually)
[x] went to a sleepover
[x] laughed till you cried (Just yesterday, actually.)
[ ] laughed till you peed in your pants
[x] visited a foreign country (IRELAAAAND)
[ ] cut in a line of waiting people
[x] told someone you were busy when you weren't
[ ] partied to celebrate the new year

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1. Have you had any relationships this year? How many?
Yes. 2

2.Had your bday yet?
INDEED.

3. Kissed two or more people in the same night?
D8 No.

5. Pulled an all nighter?
Yes, a few.

6. Drank Starbucks?
... I had a few sips of a raspberry green tea frappucino one night.

8. Bought something?
Lots DX

9. Met someone special who changed your life?
Like I said, the catalyst that caused something wonderful.

10. Fell in love?
Hopelessly so.

What are you thinking about?
My love.

Does your ex hate you?
No, she's just unable to figure out how to talk to me.

How did you feel when you woke up today?
"Oh fucking hell they're still here. I wonder if I can hide in bed all day."

Your ex shows up at your door what do you do?
"Holy shit you actually made it here"

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Not really.

Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart?
Yes.

If you could change your eye color would you?
I like my eye color, actually.

Who did you last get into a big argument with?
... Not sure. Prolly mom.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
Yes.

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
Short~

Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it?
No.

How do you currently make your money?
Student assistant -_-

Do you want to get married & have children one day?
Married yes, children... still undecided.

Which of your friends do you argue with the most?
Mandie.

Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 hours?
No ;-;

How many texts are in your inbox?
I don't have an inbox anymore o-O

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
Yes.

Who was your last text message from?
Nagi I believe.

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Mom, Auntie Ann, Sarah Jane, Montgomery and Emmy.

When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Beginning of this summer /:

Who took your profile picture?
My webcam o_o

Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Depends.

What's on your bedroom floor right now?
Clothes, stocking, Grimmy 1.0, DS... shit load of books, shoes.

Do you trust people too easily?
Eeehhh...

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Highly satisfied, yes.

Have you ever liked someone a lot older than you?
Not really.

If you had a baby with the last person you texted, what would the baby's last name be?
Reich o-o

Last thing you ate?
Christmas cookie x:

How many people are you texting?
I text an assload of people and I'm not going to count them all

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
Maybe. It's 1:53 in the morning.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Water.

Who last said they missed you?
Nagi

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THE MORAL FOR TODAY IS: Never allow family members to stay at your house for more than a night.